We left off where the hormones were not helping my mood swings. Stress was taking over everything in my life. There was a ton of stuff going on and it was out of control. I had demanded blood work and they increased my dosage of hormones. I was hanging on for the last couple of years, spinning my wheels and getting no where. Working my butt off and not being able to pay the bills. Living for a purpose of survival only. What a way to go, day after day...
Here I am, looking at back surgery at some point, a bad knee, insurance up the wazoo and not making enough to live on still... What to do? My doctor could tell that the hormones were not working really well and put me on an antidepressant in Feb. of 2002. Wow, no wonder I was not able to control anything. Well, this helped a bit but I was still not myself... I was so low emotionally, maybe this was my life now? These vitamins did not seem to making a lot of difference either, except I was getting really tired of all these pills. I'm not much of a pill person anyway. I was very careful to pick the smallest pills possible! I was looking for any kind of help.
I was also given a computer for Christmas and was learning how to surf on the web. I was joining e-mail magazines and daring to go into chat rooms and hang out. This was my new cheap entertainment. I could not believe that I had something like this in my house that could reach around the whole world. My Uncle would have loved this. He was into CB radios back in the day when they tried to see how far they could reach to speak with someone. My Grandma would have loved it just for the solitaire! Anyway, I wanted to see if I could find a way to earn some money on this thing. I signed up for contests and work on line info. Boy did that start to fill up my empty mailbox. I was getting e-mail from everywhere. I soon found out that people were selling my name to folks that had biz opportunities and I was being put into auto responders. I had a lot to learn. :)
I had been careful to try and contact people before signing up with anything. I didn't even get thru to some people. Scary! I got totally burned by a catalog for electronics gig. I could not even return the catalog. They were not there anymore! Well, this could be harder than I thought. I found a company that had liquid nutritional products that looked really good. They were 20 minutes away from my house! Guess what? I shut everything down and drove down to the Corp. Office. As I'm driving around the corner of the block, I had visions of there not being a building. There it was, Life Force International. People were actually in the office! I spoke the the lady at the desk who was very helpful. She gave me some brochures and explained everything. There was a lot of movement going on because everyone was getting ready to go to Florida for the Big Life Force Intl Convention that weekend. I went home, got online and ordered my Cornerstone Package in August of 2002. This is the beginning of my Life Force Home Business and better health!
I tried all the different products in only 3 months. I got on training calls and just listened. I was a very quiet observer for a while. I could really feel a difference with this stuff. I found my base products and new that I wanted to be on these products for the rest of my life in only 4 months! I was feeling so much better! My normal mood was coming back. I was not reacting so negatively to everything all the time. I was still totally stressed but not as emotional about things. It was really amazing!!! I was starting to smile and be a bit happy again. Some days, I actually wondered what I was on? These products have done what none of the medication could. I decided to go into business with this company because of these incredible products. This is the beginning of my MLM carrier. What a road it would be. I had no idea for the ride I was about to take....
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Monday, July 05, 2004
From the Beginning...
Okay, let's get this party started! It's time to start from the beginning. I can't think of any other way then to give you some background of where I was in life and what was going on.
I did something that started a chain of events in October of 1997. I walked off a job! I still cannot believe I did this. I am a single mother who has always worked my ass off and this was right before the Holidays! I had had enough and could not walk into that job again. It was such a difficult decision to make. I had to save my sanity! I'd been in accounting for 7 years and was still making less than I needed to live on and putting up with office politics like you cannot believe! This was a family owned and operated business and things went down hill fast when they hired an ex girlfriend of their son, who also worked there. Need I say more. I could not work with her anymore. I heard she quit the next week but it was already too late for me.
I spent a week in shock and tears. Then went through the paper and put in applications for anything. I sat down and searched my head for what I really wanted to do. I had done this for accounting too but that had gone its course...
Finally I came up with working around kids. I had run my own home day care while in Idaho putting myself through accounting classes. This was my most favorite and fun job. The other thing I love to do, is drive. I kept coming up with a school bus driver because of the hours. I could stay home on weekends and be with my son on Holidays. That would be perfect. I called DMV and spoke to a wonderful lady who recommended Laidlaw Transportation for the course. I called them and made the appointment.
I went for my appointment and signed up for the course and on the same day, went for an interview and test for a job. I got accepted for both in perfect time. The Laidlaw course would be during the day so I signed up for nights at my new job as a paging company operator. It was a low paying job that fit perfectly with my day course (with no pay or fee) for driving a school bus. The course would take 3 to 4 months. Yikes! I put in some long hours and my 13 year old son would have to stay home alone at night during this time. I had 3 neighbors that I got along with very well in the same apartment building for him to go to in case of emergency. It was a very difficult time for us both. It was only for a few months and my options were very limited. I felt lucky to have things work out so perfectly in their timing.
I soon became a school bus driver and was hired on with a closer school district and worked my night job on the weekends. Things were looking up. The school district was paying me fairly well. I was a sub driver for over a year, which meant we did not get paid for those winter, spring or summer breaks. The pay was still better than anything else I had done. My good credit was saving my butt here. I was racking up the cards. This was the year my son didn't have a Christmas. That was heart breaking but things were looking up, right?
In 1998 I was hired on as a bus driver. This meant I had medical insurance again and got paid vacation and sick days! Yeah! I was also diagnosed with early menopause. What, at 38 years old, me with early menopause? It was true. My doctor wanted me to take vitamins to help with the symptoms. Okay. This is when I became vitamin queen. I can tell you that I had a lazy suzanne in my cabinet full of vitamins. I was taking multiple vitamins and all kinds of others such as C, iron, calcium, Q enzymes, folic acid and E to name a few. I was getting more and more stressed.
In 1999, I had a bus run from hell. It's funny how the kids normally do what the parents allow them to. You would be amazed at how many parents don't think I should be able to move their child's seat on the bus for misbehaving. I wish parents would come and ride the bus their child takes to school and meet the driver. That would definitely give the parent an idea of what 50 to 80 kids on one vehicle, with only 1 driver in charge, is like. While I'm on my soap box, please stop doing anything you can as a driver to get in front of a school bus. We will get out of your way as soon as we can. We can only go as fast as the bus and the speed limit allow. Pretend we have music on our vehicles like the ice cream trucks. Y'all seem to slow down for them? Maybe pretend that we have your child aboard. Maybe that would help those drivers to slow down and give us some room. We are a vehicle over 10,000 pounds and cannot stop on a dime. Okay, enough about that.
So in 1999, I had a tough bus run, was still not making enough to live on, and was going through early menopause. I remember being very short with my son. I thought it was because of the rude kids on my bus. I was not going to put up with anything from my kid after a day of obscenities from them. Little did I know that the low tolerance for other drivers was getting bad too. If one more person had pulled in front of me and stopped, I was just going to scream. I knew that something was not right. I went to the doctors and they put me on hormones. That should do the trick. These were supposed to make me feel much better!
I was having back pain also and my doctor sent me to a specialist. She was shocked at my curved spine. I had worn a back brace all through Middle School because of my scoliosis. I had that taken care of, I thought. The back doctor told me that I was past the point of needing surgery and would probably be looking at complete spinal fusion within the next year or two. He wanted me to set up an appointment in a year to do another check up. Wow!
That sent me into a tail spin. I did not have insurance for anything like that. If I was unable to work, what would I do? My son could be alone. I was horrified. My grandfather had died and left me some money during this time. I paid off enough credit cards to qualify for a manufactured home in a trailer park. That was as good as I was going to get with my credit card amounts. I thank God for my grandfathers money. It saved my sanity for the next year and helped to get me into a nice home. I purchased a house in a park and got insurance on everything I could. I felt like my son would be taken care of whatever happened to me. I was still not making enough to do what I needed to do. The early menopause might be because of stress and I know my mom went through it very early too. This explained a lot! I remember how she was when I was in Middle School...
The hormones were not helping my mood troubles. There were a lot of issues on the table at home and work. Nothing was going well. I was crying at the drop of a hat. Stress was taking over my life. My poor son put up with a lot during this time. He had no where to run. I could not stop the words coming out of my mouth. It was an awful time for me. I remember walking into the medical center where my doctor was and ordered that they do blood work (without an appointment) and schedule an exam to evaluate the findings. They did and increased my dosage of hormones. My mind was just not working right and I knew it.
I struggled to survive all this for a couple of years. This is a good area to take a break. Imagine a life of spinning your wheels and getting no where. Working your butt off and not being able to pay the bills. Living for a purpose of survival only. What a way to go, day after day...
I did something that started a chain of events in October of 1997. I walked off a job! I still cannot believe I did this. I am a single mother who has always worked my ass off and this was right before the Holidays! I had had enough and could not walk into that job again. It was such a difficult decision to make. I had to save my sanity! I'd been in accounting for 7 years and was still making less than I needed to live on and putting up with office politics like you cannot believe! This was a family owned and operated business and things went down hill fast when they hired an ex girlfriend of their son, who also worked there. Need I say more. I could not work with her anymore. I heard she quit the next week but it was already too late for me.
I spent a week in shock and tears. Then went through the paper and put in applications for anything. I sat down and searched my head for what I really wanted to do. I had done this for accounting too but that had gone its course...
Finally I came up with working around kids. I had run my own home day care while in Idaho putting myself through accounting classes. This was my most favorite and fun job. The other thing I love to do, is drive. I kept coming up with a school bus driver because of the hours. I could stay home on weekends and be with my son on Holidays. That would be perfect. I called DMV and spoke to a wonderful lady who recommended Laidlaw Transportation for the course. I called them and made the appointment.
I went for my appointment and signed up for the course and on the same day, went for an interview and test for a job. I got accepted for both in perfect time. The Laidlaw course would be during the day so I signed up for nights at my new job as a paging company operator. It was a low paying job that fit perfectly with my day course (with no pay or fee) for driving a school bus. The course would take 3 to 4 months. Yikes! I put in some long hours and my 13 year old son would have to stay home alone at night during this time. I had 3 neighbors that I got along with very well in the same apartment building for him to go to in case of emergency. It was a very difficult time for us both. It was only for a few months and my options were very limited. I felt lucky to have things work out so perfectly in their timing.
I soon became a school bus driver and was hired on with a closer school district and worked my night job on the weekends. Things were looking up. The school district was paying me fairly well. I was a sub driver for over a year, which meant we did not get paid for those winter, spring or summer breaks. The pay was still better than anything else I had done. My good credit was saving my butt here. I was racking up the cards. This was the year my son didn't have a Christmas. That was heart breaking but things were looking up, right?
In 1998 I was hired on as a bus driver. This meant I had medical insurance again and got paid vacation and sick days! Yeah! I was also diagnosed with early menopause. What, at 38 years old, me with early menopause? It was true. My doctor wanted me to take vitamins to help with the symptoms. Okay. This is when I became vitamin queen. I can tell you that I had a lazy suzanne in my cabinet full of vitamins. I was taking multiple vitamins and all kinds of others such as C, iron, calcium, Q enzymes, folic acid and E to name a few. I was getting more and more stressed.
In 1999, I had a bus run from hell. It's funny how the kids normally do what the parents allow them to. You would be amazed at how many parents don't think I should be able to move their child's seat on the bus for misbehaving. I wish parents would come and ride the bus their child takes to school and meet the driver. That would definitely give the parent an idea of what 50 to 80 kids on one vehicle, with only 1 driver in charge, is like. While I'm on my soap box, please stop doing anything you can as a driver to get in front of a school bus. We will get out of your way as soon as we can. We can only go as fast as the bus and the speed limit allow. Pretend we have music on our vehicles like the ice cream trucks. Y'all seem to slow down for them? Maybe pretend that we have your child aboard. Maybe that would help those drivers to slow down and give us some room. We are a vehicle over 10,000 pounds and cannot stop on a dime. Okay, enough about that.
So in 1999, I had a tough bus run, was still not making enough to live on, and was going through early menopause. I remember being very short with my son. I thought it was because of the rude kids on my bus. I was not going to put up with anything from my kid after a day of obscenities from them. Little did I know that the low tolerance for other drivers was getting bad too. If one more person had pulled in front of me and stopped, I was just going to scream. I knew that something was not right. I went to the doctors and they put me on hormones. That should do the trick. These were supposed to make me feel much better!
I was having back pain also and my doctor sent me to a specialist. She was shocked at my curved spine. I had worn a back brace all through Middle School because of my scoliosis. I had that taken care of, I thought. The back doctor told me that I was past the point of needing surgery and would probably be looking at complete spinal fusion within the next year or two. He wanted me to set up an appointment in a year to do another check up. Wow!
That sent me into a tail spin. I did not have insurance for anything like that. If I was unable to work, what would I do? My son could be alone. I was horrified. My grandfather had died and left me some money during this time. I paid off enough credit cards to qualify for a manufactured home in a trailer park. That was as good as I was going to get with my credit card amounts. I thank God for my grandfathers money. It saved my sanity for the next year and helped to get me into a nice home. I purchased a house in a park and got insurance on everything I could. I felt like my son would be taken care of whatever happened to me. I was still not making enough to do what I needed to do. The early menopause might be because of stress and I know my mom went through it very early too. This explained a lot! I remember how she was when I was in Middle School...
The hormones were not helping my mood troubles. There were a lot of issues on the table at home and work. Nothing was going well. I was crying at the drop of a hat. Stress was taking over my life. My poor son put up with a lot during this time. He had no where to run. I could not stop the words coming out of my mouth. It was an awful time for me. I remember walking into the medical center where my doctor was and ordered that they do blood work (without an appointment) and schedule an exam to evaluate the findings. They did and increased my dosage of hormones. My mind was just not working right and I knew it.
I struggled to survive all this for a couple of years. This is a good area to take a break. Imagine a life of spinning your wheels and getting no where. Working your butt off and not being able to pay the bills. Living for a purpose of survival only. What a way to go, day after day...
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